Wow I needed a Journal Fast man. So yea...like my title says, I been one hell of a busy bee! And not a truly happy busy bee either. Like the kind that has to work on like god knows how many task all at the same time so that the many queen bee's don't get pissed at him.

I been working on a lot of up coming events -

~ Art Show at my Junior College [ it's an annuel event that the gallery class puts up to show other students works. But so far people been coming to me complaining how shitty the class is. I can't fucking stand Pinche Burros!

~ Animation Project [ Their was a bit of a drama with this - that I can't really say here. It's been solved so....don't ask really ]

~ Commissions [ I been having somewhat of an artblock, so having a hard time ]

~ Finals [ I feel like I'm fucking screw'd ]

~ My Bi Polar Mom [ so far 4 months without talking to her, still going! ]

~ The Orange Box [ the only positive thing here ]

Yea.....My hands, let alone my head is completly full! I would go to a better explanation on each of those. But it's not worth it, no point to bring up things that been making me angry. But yea....only positive thing [ aside from friends <3 and nick <3 ] The Orange Box. God......My Money was soooo WORTH IT! |D I bought a used orange box and.....I never been soooo pleased.

[ Half Life 2 ] I haven't finished it yet, but anyone that's watching me play it either laugh or get scar'd shitless as well. Because I don't like anything that pops out at me. ANYTHING! So everytime the zombie thingies with the crabs on their heads come to me...I use my shot gun and handle it! Or I freak out and shoot like crazy |D; At First I didn't like those Ant Lions so much....but now that I got this thing that looks like a squeeky ball toy for dogs and they follow on command. I find them addorable cute and named them - Fifi, Gigi, Spot, and Frank - You'll expect fan art from me on this, I guerantee it!

[ Portal ] I passed it which took me a while [ cause it got me dizzy and I'm not too smart xD;; ] But that game is just fucking win! Win all around! Extremely well played concept! Story idea fucking Brilliant! And it's creepy but childish at the same time - and that's like the hardest combination to put together! and yea....fucking cake was a LIE!!!!!!

[ Team Fortess 2 ] Ahaha I been having fun with Nick on this [ well right now his xbox died |D; so....moment of silence for his xbox 360 uAu . . . . . . . . . . . . ok Then! ] So far I learn'd I'm good as an engineer, which makes sense for me. I'm never any good as an attacker, I don't like going all head on. I like defending most. So characters I play most as is, Engineer and Spy. Fuck....the Spy.....- droools - xD; I'm sorry nick but the Spy is just damn hot!! Characters I like to attack with would be....Soldier [ to take down fucking sentries ] and Heavy - cause I love Sasha <3 - kisses -

Yea.....The Orange Box has been taking my soul and my time away, plus since I got an art block, can't say I can do much really, but play it out till I get myself back in gear!

My extreme goal is to save - $1,296.00 for a round ticket to England For the Month of July |D;;;;;;; and that's just for a month stay. Fuuuccck.....Can I actually do this man? Can I fucking actually pull this off. Only a fucking miracle and extreme commissioning.

talking about that later xD;

[ DeWiwi ]

[ 3 years and still going baby! ]



[ My Psycho Real Life friends ]



[ Clubs I'm In! ]

Man I needed a new journal for the longest...not to mention my Subscription ran out |D;;

First Meme is the 5 Facts about me one |D;

Tagged by

[ RULES ]
1. post these rules
2. each person tagged must post 5 random facts about themselves.
3. those tagged should write a journal about these facts.
4. at the end post 5 more deviants tagged. [ I won't do that part cause...nu xD ]
5. go to their page and leave a comment telling them they're tagged. [ nah don't feel like it ]

Facts:

[ 1 ] I love Ketchup on Pizza! @A@ The idea was given to me by my ex best friend back in the day growing up. And yea any pizza with ketchup is fine with me owo <3

[ 2 ] I get very sentimental when any female older then me hugs me or if I'm being held. It's been like that since I was little, when someone hugs me tenderly, my eyes would get watery. 8[ meh

[ 3 ] I had a pet goldfishes I won in the carnivals for 11 years. Well now there dead cause my dadleaning the tank and he accidently let the water get all sucked out ; ^ ; like 20 of them or less....I forgot. But they lived for a long time! and were as big as ya hand |D

[ 4 ] I can bend my thumb that's on my left hand back and hold it there. eAe; it's hard to explain but my left thumb is double jointed 8D

[ 5 ] I'm a Insomniac badly. I have a horrible sleeping problem. Where mostly everynight I sleep at 3am, but wake up at 7am fine....which is weird. I'm trying to get back to my sleeping patterns, but hell of hard.

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Second Meme about Free Sketches!

Taken from

[ Edit ] The first 10 people who comment on this journal will get a sketch, free. [ I'm sorta breaking the rules here, only catch is that all sketches are Digital sketches, there not going to be colored or inked out 8| that's why it's free...and for those that do get this, you don't need to do for other 10 people |D; since I know no ones gonna do it. I'm suprise I am. Oh and ONE CHARACTER PER PERSON! xD;

[ Slots Open ]

[ 1 ] Gonna Redo xD; didn't like how it came out [link]
[ 2 ] Done! [link]
[ 3 ] Done! [link]
[ 4 ] Need Ref!
[ 5 ]
[ 6 ] Done! [link]
[ 7 ]
[ 8 ]
[ 9 ]
[ 10 ]

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So there.........make one about me later eAe SOMEONE BUY ME A SUBSCRIPTION!!! xD;;

OK...it's like 1:30am,I'm officially sick 8D [ thanks to the twins and yes...I know....."I told you so!!" ] but anyways Friday is a HUGE DAY FOR ME.

[ Interview! ] I got a call on my cell on Tuesday afternoon from the Manager at Borders from the Burbank mall. I like to say....THAT'S THE FIRST TIME SOMEONE CALL ME! Seriously! I think the reason I didn't land the job at the halloween store cause: 1. It was sorta too late, 2. I kept bothering them cause I really did want the job and 3. I called them to know the news. But yea manager called me in and asked when can I go in for an interview and yea, Friday at 3pm. I am sooo thrilled, but same time can't get excited like last time.>___>; don't wanna get my hopes up para nada, ya know? So wish me luck!

[ DeSicknessss... ] So yea, caught the cold from the Twin's house. It's not as hardcore as they had it, but like yesterday I felt like shit that I didn't go to class [ which not complaining 8D ] Plus I felt like throwing up and I learned a new thing: Never take medicine on an empty stomach. Cause you get this drop kick feeling like your gonna hurl out your guts. and it's a sucky feeling.

[ Decemeber... ] I know once December kicks in, everyone is all "SHOP TILL YOU DIE" and...fact me getting a job during this holiday....is gonna be fucking insane. But meh. I'm really not looking forward to this holiday. for plenty of reason, but not gonna let that ruin the holiday for me. I mean...Christmas is the time of giving those you love something and helping others out. I don't got any cash on me to shop for gifts for everyone. the only people I'm buying stuff are: Carol, Erica, Mauricio, Nick, my Dad and my brother....oh Simba and Oreo too<3 As for my internet friends. I wanna send personal cheezy cards out. I never had, but I soo wanna.

[ Christmas WishList ] I'm not going too insane....but I remember last year I got gift from someone over de net D8 it was odd yet new. but also cause everyone is making a wishlist too xD;;

~ Pajamas [ I am a pajama person D8 ]
~Socks [ any lovely stripped color sock, Purple,White,Black,Grey<3]
~ Art Supplies
~ A new Laptop Battery [ ....cause mine is just ready to die >__>; ]
~ Flat Iron thingy [ ....I think Erica is getting me that one I think xD;]
~ DA year Subscription [ cause mine is gonna end in December 21 8D ]
~ A flight ticket to the UK for the Summer [ ok I know that's wishful thinking ahah ]
~ MarioPartyDS game [ oh!! I so want it! ]
~ Anything with Sheeps [ <3!!! ]
~ Christmas Cards [ I love recieving cards xD;; ]
~ A scrap Book [ Since my family is splitting, I think it's time I create a new album with my friend's photo's in it ]
~ BoyShort Panties! [ D8 wha...I need panties man! ]
~ Pocky and Rockygame for the SuperNintedo [ ok, I know for a fact no one is gonna get me this, cause it's SOOOOO RARE ]

I think that's it for the list...I can't remember the rest...damn xD;

that's it for now.....I do got a christmas coming up of the Nightmare Before Christmas sketch I did. ....I missed Halloween D8 sue me!

I didn't know what to type as a title 8| oh well.....BUT ANYWAYS I needed a new journal, cause the last one was depressing 8[ and can't say anything is still bright. but FUCK IT! I been listening to The Aquabats and in a good FUNK!

[ DIOS SALVA MI MAMI! 8D ]

With this Divorce that's been going down, I am hell of upset and mixed with feelings, but man, My mom is a true gold digger that she's been lying to her layer. And I truly want to strangle the women 8D I got so many awful ideas I wanna do, but I'm sorta now laughing about this cause, I got no more tears or the sanity to care anymore. 8] plus I plan on doing a piece based off this divorce and how badly my mom looks like a fool. So Expect a sketch on it! WOOOO MY MOM LOST HER MIND!!!

[ ART, ARTE!, LE ARTS, HOMG ART! ]

Lately I been more busy with my class projects and experimenting with painting, and I come to the conclusion - that I love paint with drawings. And I love splattering paint just so fucking fun seeing splatter paint. Unleashes anger and joy. But I need to improve with my coloring, I been doodling on Sketcher like crazy, either it's on Artgrounds or ArtSpots. Commission wise,I'm still doing the ones I owe and remember the people too. But I need to make a list here of it.

[ Job Searcher ]

I didn't get the job for the halloween store gig, which I was a bit uspet about it, but oh well. I headed out yesterday and applied liek crazy cause of the Christmas season, but I feel like maybe I was late on applying again. I don't know, I just need to wait a while till I go apply again. I think tomorrow on Wed. I'm gonna head back to this one store that they said they'll have the manager call me. Cause I don't wanna be held back anymore.

I might Edit this journal later,cause I forgot the rest I was gonna say. But for people I owe now! List time!

[ Commisions ]
DA - DeviantArt Commisioners

One Badge 0% [ need to Sketch ]
2 badges

FA - FurAffinity Commissioners

LikeShine -
Aquilus - 0%
ShadowPelt - Canceled

[ This is towards just the badge commissions and already paid, if I forgot someone, please tell me. The full body commissions I know who exactly I owe ]

[ ArtTrades ]

[ need to sketch idea ]


[ I got these two and don't plan to open for arttrades till I'm done with both x]. If I either forgot an arttrade...remind and tell me, but if either side hasn't started xD; then I guess the arttrade was canceled. ]

[ Wi ] Yesterday,
All my troubles seemed so far away,
Now it looks as though they're here to stay,
Oh, I believe in yesterday.

[ Dad ] Suddenly,
I'm not half the man I used to be,
There's a shadow hanging over me,
[ Wi ] Oh, yesterday came suddenly.

[ Dad ] Why she
Had to go I don't know, she wouldn't say.
I said,
[ Wi ] Something wrong, now I long for yesterday.

[ Dad ] Yesterday,
Love was such an easy game to play,
Now I need a place to hide away,
Oh, I believe in yesterday.

[ Wi ] Why she
Had to go I don't know,
[ Dad ] she wouldn't say.
I said, Something wrong, now I long for yesterday.

[ Dad & Me ] Yesterday,
Love was such an easy game to play,
Now I need a place to hide away,
Oh, I believe in yesterday.

Mm-mm-mm-mm-mm-mm-mm.

The Beatles- Yesterday, the only best way to explain what's going on for me now. If you still don't understand, then sorry I don't really wanna spell it out, just recently I seem to be disappointing so many people.I feel like crap and completely alone cause of it. But I just don't want to fight anymore, don't want to argue, don't wanna be yelled at over issues that aren't even a hardcore problem. these past months My Self esteem and Confidence has dropped down. I am trying to depend on a few people to lay my head on there shoulder, but I can't anymore, I just need to shut up and grow a back bone. Just feel like I don't got a say to anything anymore.

Jai guru deva om
Nothing's gonna change my world
Nothing's gonna change my world
Nothing's gonna change my world
Nothing's gonna change my world